My newest irrational worry

I was filling out a preliminary questionnaire for an agency last night. They wanted "to know about your struggles with infertility". Crap! We didn't really have major struggles. I got diagnosed. Mr H got examined. We determined that between us the minuscule chances of us getting pregnant weren't worth the pain, time and expense. Why spend all that money, energy and heartache to still be childless and then not have any money to spend on alternatives?

So now I'm freaked out that we aren't infertile enough to adopt. It's been less than a week since we made the decision to adopt our child and I'm already freaking out. Ugh.

Introduction

My name is Mrs H. I suffer from PCOS. My husband (who is older) and I have been married 3 years. He has 4 children from a previous marriage. I have none. We have recently made the decision to adopt a child. Getting here has not been with out heartache and tears.

Figuring out where to begin is overwhelming. I spent yesterday reading adoption blogs and various websites.

I guess I'll start from here. Today, I emailed our lawyer for a recommendation for an adoption lawyer. I also emailed a few agencies to see what assistance they can provide.

Adoption is my last best hope of having a child.